Day 22:

Day 22 - How have you changed in the past 2 years


I have matured a lot in the last two years. I am hardly the same girl that everyone went to high school with. I'm still pretty cool, and I might actually be funnier than I was in high school or the beginning of college. 
I've become far more independent. I love my friends, but I no longer need them to get along. Not to sound shitty to my friends at college and home, they're awesome and I love them. I just don't need them around me to LIVE. I have narrowed down my high school friends to very few, and I'm more selective about my friends in college. 
I have worked out details regarding my future that I hadn't figured out before. 
Speaking of, I need to fill out my internship application...gee.


Anyway, Michael, Du, and the others are heading to Charlotte tomorrow to hang around, shop, and eat at Jerusalem. mmm. 


Salaam!

Day 21:

Day 21 - One of your favorite shows.


Scrubs.


Ah Scrubs. It has everything I look for in a show. All sorts of humor, references, and strange relationships. I watch it for at least three hours a week, probably. It comes on at least three different channels for an hour a day and two hours on comedy central. It's my generation's timeless show. 


Though I pretend that season nine does not exist, with all of it's failure and such. 


That is all.

Day 20:

Day 20 - How important you think education is.


Education is very important. Although the differences between an average educated person and an uneducated person may seem to be few, it goes deeper than the surface. 
It's practically impossible to make it in this world without an education. There are circumstances that can prevent a person from going past high school, even middle school, which are completely understandable. Nowadays, employers are thinning out the amount of jobs available to those without college degrees. Even I have to go to graduate school because just a bachelor's will not get me a decent job that allows me to be independent. 
I feel as though this will continue to spiral out of control and reason. My children may need three master's degrees and a doctorate or some crazy shit like that just to get a job as an administrative assistant. 
Aside from the educational mumbo jumbo that a student learns while in college, this is a crucial time in a person's life for them to learn who they really are. All of the things we learn about the world and what's in it begin to challenge us to figure out where we belong within that crazy world. 
How could we find the time or energy to soul search while we are working overtime to make ends meet with our high school degrees?


My schoolin' is expensive as hell. I pay 1/6 of it myself every year (in education loans, but still) and I'll end up with fifty thousand dollars in debt by the time I  get both degrees that I need. Hopefully I'll get hired quickly enough so that my debt does not swallow me...


AMZ 

Day 19:

Day 19 - Disrespecting your parents.


DON'T DO IT. EVER. 


Any time I have ever disrespected either of my parents i felt ashamed, and that's how I should have felt. No child should ever treat their parents in a terrible way (unless they're horrible-abusive-dreadful people). But my parents are awesome, so they don't ever deserve to be treated with anything other than respect. 


I'm twenty years old and my mother is one of my favorite people in this world. My dad is super awesome too, but I don't ever get to see him as much as I would like. SADNESS.


AMZ

Impatiently Envisioning That Which I Can't Have

I love being able to go outside at this time of year with a cute pea coat and scarf and still feel toasty warm. I love how my face tingles and burns from the icy wind. The cold brings silence. There are no animals out on a winter's night. Not even the trees with their few remaining leaves dare move. There are Christmas lights outlining the windows of some of the residents.
There are rarely opportunities like that which provide pure, unbreaking silence.

Such a silence really gives me a crisp moment to think.


I want to marry you, Michael.
That's my clear thought for the night.

Day 18:

Day 18 - Your beliefs.

I think I'm winning this game. 

What do you mean, beliefs? That's the most vague load I have heard this week. 

I believe in myself. I believe in family. I believe in true love. I believe in God, but I haven't figured out the fine details around that yet. I believe in working hard and earning just as much. I don't believe in people not doing any work but expecting everything to be provided for them. I believe in my government, but only when it listens to it's people. I believe that technology is making people lazy. We are too dependent on smartphones and automatic everything to stop and really appreciate things. I believe that texting and driving should be illegal. I believe that Americans are over medicated. If I went to the doctor right now I'd probably be diagnosed with depression, ADD, and a boatload of other shit that would probably cost $100 a month to "balance" me out. I'm perfectly fine! I believe in spending less and saving more. I believe in hot cocoa and toasty fires. I believe I am going to marry Michael. 

That's all I can think of for now

Day 17:

Day 17 - Your highs and lows of this past year.


Although my friends stopped doing this, and I am not too interested it in myself anymore, I can't just stop doing it. 
MUST. FINISH.


Lows:
-Growing laziness that comes from this semester's schedule
-The fact that I work but still have less than a thousand dollars in the bank, and a thousand dollars won't buy me a car
-Morgan went to D.C. and left us.
-My friends are seniors, and are about to graduate and leave me


Highs:
-Michael and I are still together
-We plan on becoming engaged
-I'm not struggling financially, though I'm still broke
-I'm halfway done with my junior year of college
-I got a cat
-Everyone in my life is healthy and doing well